Tony receives a cicada that has been partially opened. There’s also a seam down the back, like someone attempted with some success to peel it open, but eventually gave up. It takes some doing to figure out what steps are still necessary, but eventually he works through opening the memory, diving into it in full at Mothgarden’s fountain.
"Oh my God, Tristan, do you boys really live like this?" The exasperated voice of Ms. Dorkins is unmistakable to Tony, even if the surroundings aren't so familiar. A dorm room, the floor piled high with clothes and lost homework and—ugh, old food containers?
"I am not cleaning this up for you," she continues, but her wand is already out and she's flicking trash toward an overflowing garbage can.
"It's fine, Ma, you don't have to." A teenage boy, Tristan Dorkins himself, shoves aside a privacy curtain in Wildgulch blue, but makes no move to leave his bed. The level of concern he shows over his mother's opinions on cleanliness is, clearly, quite minimal. "I'll just grab what I can find and replace the rest later."
"With what, your allowance? Or from the Bank of Mom and Dad?" There's a clump of socks concentrated under Tristan's desk, mismatched and unwashed. Ms. Dorkins wrinkles her nose and leaves it alone. Those she'll just replace.
"What, are you gonna let me come to school naked next year?"
"Don't call my bluff, mister, I just might." Still, using her wand (and only her wand, this room is beyond help), Ms. Dorkins pokes through the mess for Tristan's belongings. There's a history book one of his roommates never opened (she knows exactly which one, too, and she's more offended than surprised), crushed cans of WizaRed Bull, and... some pages, handwritten and stapled together.
"Tris?" Ms. Dorkins asks, bringing it closer without actually touching it. BUG CLUB it says at the top in feminine handwriting. Feb 5, 1989. Much of the writing underneath is smudged, but Sarah-Jane Dorkins, one-time history major, is no stranger to deciphering poorly preserved old documents.
'G+G research; support Tink's idea [...] KNOWLEDGE = P[...] = DEFEAT BoNE INVOLVEMENT?? Earthquakes connected?? El says library portkey on fritz M+Z Paw Paw Patrol [...] Bland se [...] nd campus, handing out cards. Wy[...] kept one.'
She flips the page to find a business card, spotted with water damage, for Burton Bland. There's a phone number, illegible to either Ms. Dorkins or Tony-as-Ms. Dorkins, but just below his name: Embrace Infinity. Ask Me How!
"What's up, Ma?" Tristan comes up behind his mother, giving Tony a rare reminder of what it feels like to be the short one in the room. Ms. Dorkins jerks in surprise.
"What is this?" She holds up the pages, business card sticking out.
"I'ono, found it in a Lit book." Tristan shrugs.
"And why do you still have it?" Another shrug, followed by a vague gesture at the whole room. Ms. Dorkins sighs and flicks the pages at the trash. "I swear to God, Tristan Ashley, what is going to happen when you grow up and move out?"
Stirring from Ms. Dorkin’s memory is a bit like waking from an anxiety dream. Tony’s heart is pumping fast and it’s a few seconds before it eases. Even once that feeling’s left, though, he still knows this memory he has isn’t his. That it should be returned to its rightful owner.
Tony gets a cicada shell...
Stirring from Ms. Dorkin’s memory is a bit like waking from an anxiety dream. Tony’s heart is pumping fast and it’s a few seconds before it eases. Even once that feeling’s left, though, he still knows this memory he has isn’t his. That it should be returned to its rightful owner.